We decided to move back home on Friday, 8/21 and moved this weekend. Now we’re back home with family and friends closeby, and I feel so much better. I start a new job tomorrow–back at the high school where I taught for eleven years, and though I’m nervous about going back to teaching full time, I know I can do it as long as I stay healthy. Right now I’m taking Vitamin B12, Fish Oil, St. John’s Wart, and Geodon (80 mg) at night (mostly to sleep, and hopefully to keep me from getting manic, which I tend to do in September). Lots of chaos right now, but we definitely feel like we made the right move.
Archive for August 2009
My husband and I spontaneously decided that we want to move back to where we lived a year ago–where family and friends are, where we both lived for 10+ years. We headed back on Friday, and while I was in the car, I checked out an education employment website and discovered that the school where I taught for ten years is looking for an English teacher. I emailed my former principal, and he wrote back that he’d “welcome me with open arms.” What a pleasing reply after the many job rejections I’ve had this year. It turns out the job is part-time (exactly what I want and need), and school starts Monday! We found a house to rent on Saturday, got approved for it on Monday, drove back here on Tuesday, are packing the house today, and moving tomorrow. It’s a crazy pace and similar to the way I started the year last year, but hopefully being back in a place where I’m comfortable and only working part-time will work out much better than this year did. I’m excited and feeling pretty good. I’m taking either 40 or 80 mg of Geodon at 7 pm to sleep–I really wish I could do without it, because I don’t know if I’m going to have benefits at my new job or not, and I can’t afford to pay for Geodon, but right now I’m seriously dependent on it for sleep. I bought some Melatonin, and I’d like to try it, but with my stress level right now (good stress, but still…) I think I better play it safe with Geodon. Thanks for your comment, Abud.
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I have a job interview at a department store on Monday. I’m actually pretty concerned that I won’t get the job (I’m not exactly feeling my bubbliest right now), and it does seem like a shame to waste my education and just work in retail. However, “eligible employees” can get benefits, so maybe that would mean me.
Tried to not take my Geodon last night, but at 11 pm, I took it, knowing that if I wasn’t tired or asleep by midnight, I wouldn’t sleep all night.
About a natural remedy as a mood stabilizer–read a little bit about using fish oil here: http://www.fishoilblog.com/benefits/have-bipolar-disorder-fish-oil-alternative-to-lithium.php
Since we won’t have any health insurance after this month, I decided to try St. John’s Wart and Vitamin B Complex. (Started 8/8). I’m really worried about not being able to stay on Geodon because I need it to sleep, but I know it’s extremely expensive without insurance. My doctor gave me some samples, but I don’t know if he’ll be willing or able to continue doing that. If anyone has any suggestions for a natural mood stabilizer or sleep aid (Tylenol PM doesn’t work for me), let me know. I decided that the best move for me job wise is to try to go back to teaching part-time–it may not include benefits, but at least it would be some income. Right now I’m still waiting for one of my credentials to arrive, and it’s getting close to school starting, so I’m getting really anxious. The other thing is we’re going to have to move for me to get a job, and that seems pretty overwhelming, considering how much stuff we have (none of it I want). Right now I guess we’re just in a holding pattern. My kids’ school starts this week.